Sailing the Styx without Charon


Sailing the Styx without Charon


Give me back my mind

The way it was, no

The way it should be

No, I don’t know

But I want it free from you

No more help from you


Dripping your sweet poison

Quietened my thoughts

Where would I be without you?

But where should I be?

I want my own destiny

Not yours


Stop pulling me back

Don’t make me sick

I can feel you leaving

Changing back wasn’t the plan

You lied to me

I should be new


I don’t want you

But I don’t want me

Something better

Free to evolve and grow

Like you promised

I can’t go back to that


A whole life not connecting

Never knowing why

Always seeing wrong

Fighting constantly

A roller-coaster nightmare

Hellish highs and lows


Spinning, racing around

My thoughts speed up

Rolling, motion sick

Winding up the head spring

The panic alarm

Fired into my chest


Taught body straining

Eyes wet again

Tingling tension

Trying to shake me

It can’t be real

You cannot have me


I can’t do this again

Don’t let it come back

Throw out all pasts

No reminders

The old life must go

And all that was in it


Have I learned?

It doesn’t work

You won’t let me go

Without letting me know

It was you all along

Protecting me


Give my head peace

Let me do this alone

So I can see properly

Without your filter

I must take this chance

For now is the time


©Copyrighted by Colin Ryan (2010)


2 responses

  1. amazing! i am out of words.. keep writing!

    January 11, 2010 at 8:16 am

  2. Patti Jo (Bear Hugz)

    Love this. A lot.

    March 16, 2010 at 5:48 pm

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